Several days ago, I had this profound dream where i felt like God was revealing things to me in the most loving of ways... I was watching family outing taking place, i could see myself, my kids, the Sexy, my entire family was there- many of my friends... but the insane thing was- the Angy that i was looking at had my face, my crazy curly hair, my signature dimples- but the body didn't match- this person was beautiful- ... I remember being confused at first, and sort of distressed in my dream- as i was watching this beautiful, loving family engage in laughter and conversation, I couldn't figure out why the person I thought was me, wasn't me- but just as i was really feeling overwhelmed by the emotion of what i was seeing, I felt the presence of Jesus just wash over me. There were no words exchanged between Him and I- He "spoke" to me heart, my spirit and I understood. I was looking at the woman that He sees me as.
For those of you who know me very very well- you've probably heard my testimony of being a recovering bulimic. But just because that addiction/illness doesn't hold me bondage anymore, doesn't mean that I don't still struggle with self esteem issues. I'm a woman. I'm a woman who's married to an unbelievably dashing and handsome man- I live in Florida and on a daily basis see women jogging in bikinis and spandex... I'm a woman.
So back to my the first part of the story- my friend reached out to me yesterday and simply said "You are the most spiritual person I know, and I just wanted to ask you if you would keep me in your prayers as I check myself into rehab. I'm scared, but i'm so excited for this new beginning." wow.
God's been stirring my spirit for a long while now about the way i treat the temple that houses his Holy spirit- MY BODY. He revealed something profound to me in this dream, and then a few days later my dear friend reaches out to me in this way.
I love how God is a God of second chances... He's lovingly showing me that He wants me to make changes, and I'm going to obey.
Tonight I ran. Not far- not fast- but I ran. And I will keep running- and I will make better choices when it come to my "temple"...
I don't expect anyone to follow or read this blog... its mostly just for me- to keep me accountable- to give me a place to vent- and praise- and express...
So here goes... I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me!
